June 17th, 2009 by Heidi

It didn’t take long for the rain to roll in today. The clouds got dark and dreary off and on all day and laid down a couple of good soakings. There was even some thunder mixed in there late this afternoon. The boys played well indoors for most of the day though they did get out for some biking in between rains. My photography session got postponed but I did manage to get a lot of work done today. Amazing the things you can do when silly Facebook bans you from commenting for a few days. [more on that another day] No really, so much going on this week, I had way to much to do and I did it. But the best part of a rainy day like today – it stops while there is still daylight. And the peonys that are about to bloom are filled with tiny fresh raindrops that I love to photograph. And I did.

June 14th, 2009 by Heidi

Yesterday was the one day of the whole year that I really dread. After 9 years, I’d think I’d be used to it, but I’m not. Hannah really enjoys spending the summer with her dad but that’s a month and a half that I miss her like crazy. We woke up early to say our goodbyes. Connor had a hard time too, he cried while they hugged goodbye. It breaks my heart. I watched them drive away and hugged my boys. And just one hour later I drove them out to their dad’s place to let them go for the weekend. I drove home with the radio on loud and a heavy heart.

I came home to an empty house. [minus a couple of super cute Corgis and some kitties] Most days I really live for the silence, the time that I can just be alone with me, to clear my head and do some things that I want to do. But this day was different. I laid down on the couch and slept for 2 hours. I felt bored the rest of the day and into the late hours of the night. I just wasn’t enjoying myself. And James is held up with a broke-down semi and he’s not having any fun either. We were bored together, only separately. sigh. Just spending some time feeling sorry for myself.

But leading up to yesterday, we had a great week. The weather was gorgeous at the end of the week. We had a picnic on 2 different days, we went to the skate park twice, we played outside, went to the library, we just had a good time being us.

The skate park was awesome. The boys have been begging to go for such a long time and my mama fears kept us away. I’m just not sure they were ready to take on something so dangerous. But really – when is a good time? So I gave in. We had a long talk before so that they knew what to do and what not to do. I could only prepare them so much. But it was such a relief when Connor came to me after riding some and told me that his legs were so shaky. I knew this meant he’d be a little more careful, at least for a little while. They really had fun and I know they were so appreciative that I actually let them go. And they’d sit and watch the older kids who could do some tricks and I could see the admiration in their faces. I’m pretty sure I’ll have some BMX trixter kids before long! It’s fun to see them excited and having fun. Of course, I took some pictures to share. They make me smile and I hope it’s just one step to making it through a long summer.

more pictures here.

June 12th, 2009 by Heidi

I’m seriously slacking. I’m frustrated with myself for not following through with my blogging vision. A year ago I started this blog as a place to just write, a place to keep my big ole family updated on the things that go on around here, a place to share about myself and my kids and my photography. And lately, I’ve just let it all go. Even sadder, I’ve not blogged or journaled much of anything in months. And I’m feeling a little left out from myself. I feel like I’ve cheated myself and my kids out a lot of details throughout the year that are now undocumented. That was exactly waht I didn’t want to happen. I need to keep doing this, to keep writing down the litlte thing, sharing the pictures and keeping a record for my family.

If you’re a reader of my blog, and you see me skipping too many days of writing, will you please kick me? Leave me a comment, send me an email, give me a call. I need that little push sometimes. I get caught up with the other 50 trillion things going on day to day and forget or don’t take the time to write. I’m doing myself an injustice. Keep me in line!